If I actually say it. If I actually write it. It means its done. That shouldn’t be such a bad thing, because its done anyway. If I’ve started coming to the conclusion that some things are better left unknown, and unsaid. But they are known, and those words have been said.

So why is part of my heart still fighting for you?

sometimes you love, and you learn, & you move on.. and that’s okay.

My heart silently goes out to the individuals that always go through those brutal times. The ones where they don’t know where to go next and who to turn to. The ones whose hearts have been under constant strain and hurt. The ones that always have the will to keep on going toward a new day, even if there’s nothing left for them when they get there. It’s when I think about those people, that I begin to realize how blessed I am and how thankful I should be. I’m learning to be a better person, so does that count as any consolation for the way I’ve acted in the past?.. I guess not.

Sometimes you love, and you learn, and you move on. And that’s okay.

the heart when it breaks

When you drop a glass or a plate to the ground, it makes a loud crashing sound. When a window shatters, a table leg breaks, or when a picture falls off the wall, it makes a noise. But as for your heart, when that breaks, it’s completely silent. You would think as it’s so important it would make the loudest noise in the whole world, or even have some sort of ceremonious sound like the gong of a symbol or the ringing of a bell. But it’s silent and you almost wish there was a noise to distract you from the pain.

Cecelia Ahern

You know the worst thing about heartbreak…

is not the feeling like your heart is actually breaking. Not the resulting numbness and complete void of all other feelings but hurt and sadness. But that it leaves you feeling hopeless. I truly feel hopeless about finding someone who won’t end up making me feel this way. Without hope that the days will ever be as exciting without you in them. Hopeless, in the fact, that I could truly be so wrong about someone.

I know time will pass and things will change. I know that I won’t always feel like this. But for now…