stop seeking perfection

You are not worth your looks.  You are priceless.  You are seeking perfection in the most inappropriate places. They are nothing. They’ll open more empty spaces.

You are not your thoughts. You can be more than what people want you to look. They only guarantee ignorance – shallow, mediocre and useless.

You are you. Stop going after what other people want you to want. Your life is not theirs, not his. It’s yours. Even if its going to hurt a lot of people, even if you can’t figure out an easier way to do things, achieve things for yourself. You reward yourself.

You are deserving. You are worth the time.

Stop seeking perfection. I love you. I’ll always love you. Because you’re you. Not a photoshopped image of you. Just you. It’s more than enough.

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i belong

I can promise that there will be obstacles in the future, but I can also promise I’ll be there too. Because I’m stuck on you by the world’s strongest glue. It’s a bond in our palms, that I can call choice, an emotion so strong, it gives silence a voice. I will be there to suffer with you, your pain, and obstacles will slide by, but I will remain. When it’s dark, I’ll tell you you’re not alone, when you fall short, I’ll show you how much you’ve grown. when you feel like you’re helpless and stuck, if I can’t pull you out, I’ll jump into the muck. I’ll hold your hand through valley, through hill, not because I have to, but of my own free will. when your life is a mess, and when it’s tidy, I’ll be for you a ribcage, and hold you inside me. Because you are this vital organ that plays my favorite song, and being with you is where i belong.

shangri-la

In an ideal world, you’d hope that everyone is paired. I  base this on the idea that everyone should at least have one person who would go to them. Ideally, your mother would have your father. Ideally, your daughter would have her husband; Ideally, you would have your lover. Throwing a monkeywrench into this, however, is age, more specially, a child has yet to meet their significant other, so they would have no one. This lack of attachment strikes me stronger than anything else, and that is why I apply my altruism to this situation. I would simply choose the person who has no one, so that they would have someone. even if that person is a complete stranger, as long as my loves are loved I would seek out the unloved and make them loved.

i need you to come get me

At the end of the day, when it comes down to it, all we really want is to be close to somebody. So this thing, where we all keep our distance and pretend not to care about each other, is usually a load of bull. So we pick and choose who we want to remain close to, and once we’ve chosen those people, we tend to stick close by. No matter how much we hurt them, the people that are still with you at the end of the day – those are the ones worth keeping. And sure, sometimes close can be too close. But sometimes, that invasion of personal space, it can be exactly what you need.

— Meredith, Grey’s Anatomy

one month..

Even when you think there’s no one better than what you just lost, there’s always someone patiently waiting to prove you wrong and hoping to get a chance to do so…

One month. Started yesterday. That’s what we agreed on. No commitments.

In the end, when things won’t be in his favor, I just wish I have the strength to tell him I tried my best but it just doesn’t allow me to go beyond that.

At this point in time, I don’t think I have the heart to hurt him.

At this moment, I am as I feared to be.

I am bad girl. 😦