i will let you go | daniel ahern

How we play fight
As we dance slow
The smile you making saying ‘yes’ meaning ‘no’
Is so grey, so faint.
The words stray in your mouth with an ache

… no more paving the present with pain from my past
And I will let you go

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reflections on a skyline | michael talman & richard jakes (directors)

…but I’ll tell you the worst me and try and give you the best of me because you don’t deserve any less…

And I wanna play hide and seek, give you my clothes, tell you I love your shoes, sit on the steps when you take a bath, and massage your neck, and kiss your face, and hold your hand and go for a walk.

Not mind when you eat my food, and meet you at Rudy’s and talk about the day. Talk about your day and laugh at your paranoia. Give you tapes you don’t listen to, watch great films… watch terrible films.

And tell you about the TV program I saw the night before, and not laugh at your jokes. Want you in the morning, but let you sleep for awhile. Tell you how much I love your eyes, your lips, your neck.

Sit on the steps smoking ’til your neighbors come home. Sit on the steps smoking ’til you come home. And worry when you’re late, and be amazed when you’re early.

I’d give you sunflowers and go to your party and dance. Be sorry when I’m wrong and happy when you forgive me. Look at your photo’s and wish I’d known you forever. Hear your voice in my ear, feel your skin on my skin. And get scared when you’re angry.

I tell you you’re gorgeous. And hug you when you’re anxious and hold you when you’re hurt and want you when I smell you and offend you when I touch you and whimper when I’m next to you, and whimper when I’m not. Smother you in the night and get cold when you take the blanket and hot when you don’t. Melt when you smile, dissolve when you laugh. But not understand how you think I’m rejecting you when I’m not rejecting you and wonder how you could think I’d ever reject you. And wonder who you are.

But I accept you anyway. And tell you about the tree angel and enchanted forest boy who flew across the ocean because he loved you. I’d buy you presents you don’t want and take them away again and ask you to marry me and you say no again but keep on asking because though you think I don’t mean it but I always have from the first time I asked you.

I wander the city thinking, but I’m empty without you, but I want what you want and think I’m losing myself.

But I’ll tell you the worst me and try and give you the best of me because you don’t deserve any less. Answer your questions when I’d rather not. And tell you the truth when I really don’t want to. And try to be honest because I knew you prefer it. And think it’s all over but hang on for just ten more minutes before you throw me out of your life, forget who I am. And let me try and get closer you.

… And somehow communicate some of the over-whelming, undying, overpowering, unconditional, all-encompassing, heart-enriching, mind-expanding, ongoing, never-ending love I have for you.

I Bruise Easily | Natasha Bedingfield

… anyone who, can touch you, can hurt you, or heal you
anyone who, can reach you, can love you, or leave you…

My skin is like a map, of where my heart has been
And I can’t hide the marks, but it’s not a negative thing
So I let down my guard, drop my defences, down by my clothes
I’m learning to fall, with no safety net, to cushion the blow

I bruise easily, so be gentle when you handle me
There’s a mark you leave, like a love heart, carved on a tree
I bruise easily, can’t scratch the surface without moving me
Underneath I bruise easily, I bruise easily

I’ve found your finger prints on a glass of wine
Do you know you’re leaving them all over this heart of mine too
But if I never take this leap of faith I’ll never know
So I’m learning to fall with no safety net to cushion the blow

I bruise easily, so be gentle when you handle me
There’s a mark you leave, like a love heart carved on a tree
I bruise easily, can’t scratch the surface without moving me
Underneath I bruise easily, I bruise easily

Anyone who, can touch you, can hurt you, or heal you
Anyone who, can reach you, can love you, or leave you

So be gentle
So be gentle
So be gentle
So be gentle

I bruise easily, so be gentle when you handle me
There’s a mark you leave, like a love heart, carved on a tree
I bruise easily, can’t scratch the surface without moving me
Underneath I bruise easily,

I bruise easily, so be gentle when you handle me
There’s a mark you leave, like a love heart, carved on a tree
I bruise easily, can’t scratch the surface without moving me
Underneath I bruise easily, I bruise easily

I bruise easily
I bruise easily

let it go | cavo

… on repeat… 🙂

Wait it out till the light
Take a breathe, say good night
But don’t ever go away

Wait around to find the time
Only you can take what’s mine
But don’t ever go away

I’ll be waiting….I need to let it go

Fade it out into the light
All these years we never get it right
I need to let it go

No more reasons to defy
That I believed that you were mine
I need to let it go

A chance to change or stay the same
One night with out the blame
That don’t ever go away

Only you can make it right
To walk away with out no fight
But don’t ever go away

I’ll be waiting…I need to let it go

Fade it out into the light
All these years we never get it right
I need to let it go

No more reasons to defy
That I believed that you were mine
I need to let it go

I wish you’d let me go

win | brian mcknight

Happy. Inspired. Inspirited. I’m talking about the song itself.

He surprised me with an audio file of this song, him singing. Just when I was still shaken from an argument with someone who needs to be forgotten.

And he made me the happiest girl today. He amazes me with his patience, his winning attempts to make me happy. And he’s slowly winning… He never gives up on me. And this is what is the most endearing thing about him. 🙂

Dark is the night
I can battle the storm
Never say die
I’ve been down this road before
I’ll never quit
I’ll never lay down, mm
See I promised myself that I’d never let me down

I’ll never give up
Never give in
Never let a ray of doubt slip in
And if I fall
I’ll never fail
I’ll just get up and try again

Never lose hope
Never lose faith
There’s much too much at stake
Upon myself I must depend
I’m not looking for place ashore
I’m gonna win

I’ll stop at nothing
There’s still a ways to go, oh
Someway, somehow
Whatever it takes, I know
I’ll never quit, no no
I’ll never go down, mm, mm
I’ll make sure they remember my name
A hundred years from now

I’ll never give up
Never give in
Never let a ray of doubt slip in
And if I fall
I’ll never fail
I’ll just get up and try again

Never lose hope
Never lose faith
There’s much too much at stake
Upon myself I must depend
I’m not looking for place ashore
I’m gonna win

When it’s all said and done
My once in a lifetime will be back again
Now is the time
To take a stand
Here is my chance
That’s why I

I’ll never give up
Never give in
Never let a ray of doubt slip in
And if I fall
I’ll never fail
I’ll just get up and try again

Never lose hope
Never lose faith
There’s much too much at stake
Upon myself I must depend
I’m not looking for place ashore
I’m gonna win

Mmm, I’m gonna win

u: romeo, romeo

I remembered. One time you asked for an audio file of the song. You called it “Romeo, romeo.” I thought you were referring to a rap song. I thought of Alicia Keys’ song. You still kept on rejecting my thoughts. Because it wasn’t really titled that way. It was Taylor Swift’s. And it took us a long time to scourge through our brain to remember that name and recall that title. This snippet, this little remembering of events made me smile today. I have always enjoyed our childish conversations. I miss them.