dreaming with a broken heart | John Mayer cover |Sarah Lamantia

… when you’re dreaming with a broken heart

the waking up is the hardest part…

– “Dreaming with a Broken Heart,” by John Mayer, sung by Sarah LaMantia

i will let you go | daniel ahern

How we play fight
As we dance slow
The smile you making saying ‘yes’ meaning ‘no’
Is so grey, so faint.
The words stray in your mouth with an ache

… no more paving the present with pain from my past
And I will let you go

only when you’re lonely | bruno mars

… Had me fooled from the start and I quickly gave my heart
Cos I loved you, loved you, loved you
But this is what happens when you’re a lonely girl with no one to turn you
Now I’m stronger, don’t need you any longer
So get off your knees, your words don’t mean anything…

… After all the things you put me through, ooh still I come right back
But now I know the truth, I can finally see
You only want me when you’re lonely
If I say I’m gonna leave, that’s the only time you want me
Next time you need me there I won’t make it
Another late night call I won’t take it
Cos now I finally see, you only want me when you’re lonely.

that’s how strong my love is | Alicia Keys

It was ironic, as i was writing the previous post, this song kept playing in my head. I guess this is what happens when one is comfortable now with the fact that it was what it was, and nothing can change that. Keeping the memories, which once in a while flash back, but still one keeps looking ahead.

That’s How Strong My Love Is

some people they call me crazy
for falling in love with you
they can take me and lock me away baby
’cause there’s nothing those bars can do

I’ll be the rising moon after setting sun
just to let you know you’ll always have someone
I’llbe the clearest day when the rain is done
so you’ll always know

through the shake of an earthquake
i will never fall
that’s how strong my love is
like a ship through the storm
we can risk it all
that’s how strong my love is

i used to feel kinda lonely
cause the world it can be so fake
all that matters i’m telling you
is you and me only
and the fortress from love we’d make

i’ll be the water you need in the desert land
just to let you know you’ll always have my hand
i’ll be the woman you need to be a better man
so you’ll always know

through the shake of an earthquake
i will never fall
that’s how strong my love is
like a ship through the storm
we can risk it all
that’s how strong my love is

oh, can’t nothing break us down
oh, ’cause we are heaven bound
like the mountain standing tall:
immovable; we’re here to stay
oh,can’t nothing get in the way

through the shake of an earthquake
i will never fall(i will never fall)
that’s how strong my love is(that’s how strong my love is)
like a ship through the storm
we can risk it all(we can risk it all)
that’s how strong my love is(that love is)

through the deepest waters
i won’t let you drown (I won’t let you drown Ohh!)
that’s how strong my love is (Oh that’s how strong my love, my love, my love)
cause we’re the moon in the sky
that will never come down (never come down)
that’s how strong my love is (Oh that’s how strong my love is)
that’s how strong my love is
that’s how strong my love is

wonderfully loved.

I was having a really frustrating day today (since every little thing pops up even when I don’t ask them to), and conversations even when they come from the most unlikely person soothe me, calm me. more so, because they come at a right time when i am in need of reassurances.

He just did that today. I pushed him away so many times yet he manages to be there when I need to forget this doubtful feeling that things will change.

He comically sang along to these songs right at the moment when all I wanted was to scream, burst into tears. Here is my happy ending for today. This, I owe to him today.

…if i never get to heaven then at least i will have known
i had an angel here on earth that i could call my very own
and if the world should end tomorrow
girl this much i know is true
i have found my piece of heaven the day that i found you…

…oh, when your cold
I’ll be there to hold you tight to me
When your on the outside baby and you can’t get in
I will show you, your so much better than you know
When your lost, when your alone and you can’t get back again
I will find you darling I’ll bring you home…

anybody’s heart | katharine mcphee

I was yours, I was yours
And the heart that you broke
Was devoted and pure
And it wasn’t just anybody’s heart

It’s a great big world to a scared little girl
If you smile just right, no one knows
You might have a heart full of pain and a soul that can’t reign
And a stomach full of butterflies

All that I wanted was just to feel safe
Safe in your arms

Say you didn’t mean to
Say I wouldn’t understand
But it’s time you say something
God knows it’s the one thing I need
And the heart you broke
Know it wasn’t just anybody’s heart

So I bit my nails and I held my breath
And I said I’m fine, yeah, I did my best
But you can’t tell me you never knew the truth
Of all the fear I felt, how I worried about you

And all that I wanted was just to feel safe
Safe in your arms

Say you didn’t mean to
Say I wouldn’t understand
But it’s time you say something
God knows it’s the one thing I need
And the heart you broke
Know it wasn’t just anybody’s heart

I was yours, I was yours
And the heart that you broke
Was devoted and pure
And it wasn’t just anybody’s heart

sam & glez: i ♥ u

sam & glez, i ♥ u…

Anywhere But Here | Safetysuit

You’re beautiful inside,
you’re so lovely
and I can’t see why I’d do anything without you, you are
And when I’m not with you,
I know that it’s true
That I’d rather be anywhere but here without you

Is this the end of the moment
or just a beautiful unfolding
Of a love that will never be
or maybe be
Everything that I never thought could happen
or ever come to pass
and I wonder
If maybe,
maybe I could be all you ever dreamed, cause you are

Beautiful inside, so lovely
and I can’t see why I’d do anything without you,
you are
And when I’m not with you,
I know that it’s true
That I’d rather be anywhere but here without you

Is this a natural feeling
or is it just me bleeding
All my thoughts and dreams in hope that you will be with me or
Is this a moment to remember
or just a cold day in December,
I wonder
If maybe, maybe I could be all you ever dreamed cause you are

Beautiful inside, so lovely
and I can’t see why I’d do anything without you, you are
And when I’m not with you,
I know that it’s true
That I’d rather be anywhere but here without you

Is this the end of the moment
or just a beautiful unfolding of a love that will never be for you and me
Cause you are

a thousand words

Don’t you wanna be with me?

…Of course I want to be with you. Why did you think I stayed as long as I did?

I don’t know. Why did you stay?

…Because I love you.

To forget somebody isn’t possible. Deep inside, you remember everything. You may not think of them for years at a time, but you don’t know how to forget. You can recall the way they smiled when they were happy, and the way their face showed no expression when they couldn’t find their way.

video by: Adam Ardans,Tiffany Lo, Travis Munn, Eric Night Pipe, Darrin O’Hara & Joselito Seringt

reflections on a skyline | michael talman & richard jakes (directors)

…but I’ll tell you the worst me and try and give you the best of me because you don’t deserve any less…

And I wanna play hide and seek, give you my clothes, tell you I love your shoes, sit on the steps when you take a bath, and massage your neck, and kiss your face, and hold your hand and go for a walk.

Not mind when you eat my food, and meet you at Rudy’s and talk about the day. Talk about your day and laugh at your paranoia. Give you tapes you don’t listen to, watch great films… watch terrible films.

And tell you about the TV program I saw the night before, and not laugh at your jokes. Want you in the morning, but let you sleep for awhile. Tell you how much I love your eyes, your lips, your neck.

Sit on the steps smoking ’til your neighbors come home. Sit on the steps smoking ’til you come home. And worry when you’re late, and be amazed when you’re early.

I’d give you sunflowers and go to your party and dance. Be sorry when I’m wrong and happy when you forgive me. Look at your photo’s and wish I’d known you forever. Hear your voice in my ear, feel your skin on my skin. And get scared when you’re angry.

I tell you you’re gorgeous. And hug you when you’re anxious and hold you when you’re hurt and want you when I smell you and offend you when I touch you and whimper when I’m next to you, and whimper when I’m not. Smother you in the night and get cold when you take the blanket and hot when you don’t. Melt when you smile, dissolve when you laugh. But not understand how you think I’m rejecting you when I’m not rejecting you and wonder how you could think I’d ever reject you. And wonder who you are.

But I accept you anyway. And tell you about the tree angel and enchanted forest boy who flew across the ocean because he loved you. I’d buy you presents you don’t want and take them away again and ask you to marry me and you say no again but keep on asking because though you think I don’t mean it but I always have from the first time I asked you.

I wander the city thinking, but I’m empty without you, but I want what you want and think I’m losing myself.

But I’ll tell you the worst me and try and give you the best of me because you don’t deserve any less. Answer your questions when I’d rather not. And tell you the truth when I really don’t want to. And try to be honest because I knew you prefer it. And think it’s all over but hang on for just ten more minutes before you throw me out of your life, forget who I am. And let me try and get closer you.

… And somehow communicate some of the over-whelming, undying, overpowering, unconditional, all-encompassing, heart-enriching, mind-expanding, ongoing, never-ending love I have for you.

I Bruise Easily | Natasha Bedingfield

… anyone who, can touch you, can hurt you, or heal you
anyone who, can reach you, can love you, or leave you…

My skin is like a map, of where my heart has been
And I can’t hide the marks, but it’s not a negative thing
So I let down my guard, drop my defences, down by my clothes
I’m learning to fall, with no safety net, to cushion the blow

I bruise easily, so be gentle when you handle me
There’s a mark you leave, like a love heart, carved on a tree
I bruise easily, can’t scratch the surface without moving me
Underneath I bruise easily, I bruise easily

I’ve found your finger prints on a glass of wine
Do you know you’re leaving them all over this heart of mine too
But if I never take this leap of faith I’ll never know
So I’m learning to fall with no safety net to cushion the blow

I bruise easily, so be gentle when you handle me
There’s a mark you leave, like a love heart carved on a tree
I bruise easily, can’t scratch the surface without moving me
Underneath I bruise easily, I bruise easily

Anyone who, can touch you, can hurt you, or heal you
Anyone who, can reach you, can love you, or leave you

So be gentle
So be gentle
So be gentle
So be gentle

I bruise easily
I bruise easily

Everybody | Ingrid Michaelson

….happy is the heart that still feels the pain

We have fallen down again tonight
In this world it’s hard to get it right
Trying to make your heart fit like a glove
What it needs is love, love, love

Everybody, everybody wants to love
Everybody, everybody wants to be loved
Oh-oh oh
Oh-oh oh
Everybody, everybody wants to love
Everybody, everybody wants to be loved
Oh-oh oh
Oh-oh oh

Happy is the heart that still feels pain
Darkness drains and light will come again
Swing open your chest and let it in
Just let the love, love, love begin